But, needless to say, I became quite frightened and concerned about my state of mind. I knew I had no intention of hurting myself. I knew that the thoughts were distressing and that I didn’t want them. Because I’d been experiencing other OCD symptoms that had been dormant for a long time (checking doors and stove, repeating things), I suspected that this familiar vicious cycle of unwanted thoughts and distressing over these thoughts were more than likely OCD. This brought some comfort.
- Checked in with therapist about symptoms
- Checked in with DBT group therapist about same
- Checked in with medications nurse and psychiatrist about same
- Increased anxiety meds as prescribed/recommended by psychiatrist
- Researched and am considering additional medication for mood stabilization and obsessive thoughts (I have questions though, such as: Is this as-needed or a daily thing? Are these addictive? Do the potential benefits outweigh possible side effects? How quickly do they work? Is this just temporary, during this stressful time? What other non-medication solutions are available to me? …. I’ll be asking these questions today to medications nurse and then discussing with therapist tomorrow.)
- Keeping my appointments (2 DBT groups this week and 1 individual session tomorrow.)
- I’ve been wrapping myself up in my favorite fleece blanket and swaddling on the couch, watching TV shows that make me smile
- I bought some cherry blossom scented body wash and used some body lotion with the same scent. I also got some new shampoo to have a new sensory experience in the shower.
- Ate a fudge brownie
- Lots of encouraging self-talk
- Being willing to explore ways to feel and be well.