Identifying Triggers with BPD – A Personal Experience

Caution: This blog post is about triggers and talks about some major abandonment issues. Our household has been a bit stressful lately. We decided to adopt a second cat to keep our first cat company while we are at work and just so that he would have a playmate. Unfortunately, our resident cat is being […]

Encouraging Those With BPD & Anxiety

Today was particularly challenging.  I have been in somewhat of an existential mode (which is interesting but can get really scary, really fast for me), and I have been experiencing some rather intense anxiety attacks (heart jumping out of chest very fast, racing thoughts, crying spells). I know that there are some reasons why I […]

Dealing with Intense & Difficult Emotions and Intrusive Thoughts

Sometimes we just need to be held and know we are loved It’s been a rough couple of days emotionally – really intense. I know things will be fine, but I have been frustrated by the repeated visits of uncomfortable and unwanted thoughts. Something that has helped in the past is the Emotion Regulation Worksheet […]

Desperately Seeking Sanity – Or at least some stability

Love this image: Mood Swings 🙂 Mood Swings. Need I say more? I swear my boss must think I am bi-polar after my little performance today. I actually at one point had thought I might be – the type with rapid mood swings…but my doctor assessed that my mood swings are actually triggered by a […]

It’s the Little Things | Every Day Pleasant Life Activities for Adults

In DBT group, we have a handout called “Adult Pleasant Events Schedule.” It is a checklist of 197 little things we can do each day (we are encouraged to pick at least one daily or make up our own) to make life more enjoyable. There are 3 pages total. Here is Page 1: Page 2: […]

Triggers When You Have BPD or PTSD | Polarized Thinking

A number of things come to mind that I could write about today.  I think I will talk about triggers. I have a personal trigger where I have a very difficult time accepting criticism. It’s not because I believe I am perfect and don’t deserve it, but as someone living with Borderline Personality Disorder, I […]

Opposite Action: DBT Skill

I did NOT feel like writing tonight, which is exactly why I decided to do so anyway. Today I had DBT Group after work. DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) is the leading treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder. Every week, we meet together in a group led by a psychotherapist who guides us on a brief mindfulness […]

Today’s Visit with The Psychiatrist

I am quite lucky to have a psychiatrist that really gets me. I feel that she understands, has compassion, and actually listens. At least most of the time. I mean, we’re all human. I had an appointment with her this morning, and I revealed to her some anxiety that I have been experiencing. I haven’t […]

Sundays Can Be Difficult for the BPD Chameleon

  Sundays can be a bit difficult in terms of my BPD symptoms.  In reality, Sunday means that the weekend is winding down and that my boyfriend and I go back to work tomorrow – just as we do every week and have every week for as long as we’ve been together. The scared, […]