BPD: Outside In

BPD – Outside/In By Guest Blogger Sean Hayes   Outside Colleen was just finishing up a beast of a prep list when Sean arrived to start his dinner shift. Molasses oat bread cooling. Cowgirl Meatloaf resting in the pans. More than a dozen other recipes already crossed off the list. “Hello dear Momma C!” he […]

Fear of Abandonment

When it comes to the fear of abandonment, I’m no stranger. I see pretty much EVERYTHING (a facial expression, a sigh, body language) as a sign that someone is going to leave me. I’m worried that if I make a mistake, mess up, aren’t “good enough” or disappoint my “favorite person” in any way, that […]

The Perks of Being a Borderline Resilient

  Please enjoy this guest post written by Eli Juniper Trigger Warning: Frank discussion of suicidal ideation. You. Yes, You. I have tried for so long to explain to You, to make You understand. You have been cruel, You have been ignorant, You have been dismissive. I have grown as a shadow of my true […]

The Choice to Not Abandon Myself

Some mornings, I wake up “scared to death.” I experienced this same fear when I was 20 years old and engaged to be married. For months, there was wedding planning and excitement. One week before the wedding, I woke up crying my eyes out (like I had done for a month or more). I felt […]