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She likes me, She likes me not. | Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment (BPD)

I recently decided to let my walls down a bit when it comes to connecting with others.  A couple of weeks ago, I wrote about a blossoming friendship with my coworker. For the most part, things have been going well, though I must admit that figuring out boundaries, not getting too intense, and not worrying […]

Hello. I Love You. Won’t you tell me your name? | Boundaries and Borderline Personality Disorder

“Hello. I love you. Won’t you tell me your name?”  Boundaries and Borderline Personality Disorder — That’s what this post is about.   When I first meet someone, I know that all of my insecurities come up. I desperately want everyone to like and approve of me.  Of course, this probably stems from a childhood […]

Interpersonal Effectiveness (DBT): Why I Don’t Have Friends (BPD)

In an effort to improve my Interpersonal Effectiveness skills and, ultimately, work toward continuing to “create a life worth living” – the motto of DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy),  I have taken the risk of reach out to a few people to see if they want to get together.  It was terrifying. The mere thought of the rejection and their […]

Feeling Lonely: Just Me & my BPD

I feel lonely today, and I have fought back tears on a couple of occasions – once during a quiet moment in yoga this morning, and another just now as I began typing this.  You see, I’ve done a good job at isolating myself so that I don’t have to try at relationships.  I had […]

BPD & Difficulty with Relationships | I’m Sorry Jenny

On my way to the grocery store just now, as I approached the stop sign,  I saw an old friend and colleague get into her car. It was so good to see her face. I gently waved.Things ended on bad terms between us, but the bitterness that remains with her surprised and hurt me. She […]

Desperate for Connection | Borderline Personality Disorder

One of my biggest struggles as a person with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is that I have both a desperate longing to connect with others and a desperate fear of rejection and hurt.I long to have friends. It isn’t very difficult for me to connect with someone and start a friendship. I’m friendly, caring, and […]